I was completely unaware of the change.
I never got the memo.
All the plans I had made and the path I carved out was no longer in sight.
Somehow my life was not what I expected and had anticipated for it to be.
On Monday I (Bethany) wrote about Peter and how his life plans were turned upside down when he met Jesus. The life of being a fisherman was no more.
I am not going to take the time and compare myself to Peter because I KNOW I could never measure up, but I have felt God’s Will upon my life and watched it get thrown so far off track I don’t even recognize it.
Before I had a family I had a plan…
A plan to go to college, go to medical school, become a caring, successful doctor, and then have a family... In that order.
Obviously God forgot to send me that memo about my life taking a sharp right turn because the life I envisioned was just a fleeting dream once He got done.
In his heart man plans his course but the Lord determines his steps. ~Proverbs 16:9
So what would God’s plan for my life be?
Stay-at-home mom, wife, caretaker for my ailing mother, writer, entrepreneur and encourager of women.
Yes, I wanted to be a wife and mother. Yes, I wanted to have a successful career, I just imagined it would be in a pediatric oncologist practice.
But, I never imagined that I would have roles reversed and be taking care of my mother.
Never in a million years would I have thought I would be writing.
Fun fact about me…when I was in school (high school & college) I was a math and science girl. I despised English class—loathed it! But now, I write.
Funny how God works, isn’t it?
Proverbs 16:9 hit’s so close to home. My goal was to help people. I expected that it would be through a medical career, but obviously God has other plans in mind. He is showing me that I can help others through writing and sharing my thoughts with the world.
Yes, I have stepped so far from my comfort zone, I don’t even remember where that was anymore, but I have embraced, wholeheartedly, the place God has put me...Most of the time.
Now it wasn’t easy at first. I have argued with God, interrogated him in search of answers to question about why my life has taken the turn that it has, and even refused to write because I have control over whether I sit at the computer and type or not!
Eventually, God wins...So, I write.
I have faced the fears of not being accepted into the world of writers. Since I am not formally trained in journalism or English there are emotions swirling through my head about the words that I put on the screen not being good enough.
But, despite all the stubbornness I have and the emotions that sometimes get the best of me, the most important thing is...I have fallen in love with spreading His gospel.
Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. ~Proverbs 16:3
I may not be a best-selling author, but my little blog, in my miniscule corner of the internet, is the one place that I can share His glorious words and pray that they will reach the hearts and minds that He guides them too.
I feel there is someone out there right now, reading these words, who’s life isn’t exactly what was planned. No, it’s not easy to accept that our lives might not end up the way that we want, especially if you are a planner like me. Trust me—I didn’t want to accept writing and leaving the medical career that I longed for behind me.
But, I have found comfort in one thing…
God DOES send memos to let you know you are on the right path—His path. There will be small reminders and clues that show you are exactly where He wants you.
Remember…That if I am working for the Will of God, then no matter where He places me in this world, I will be successful.
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