COMPOSED ANGER VS CHILDHOOD TANTRUM

I {Lindsey} am being put to the test. Life is pushing me further and further and I am feeling my self inch closer to a tantrum type response. I want to stomp my feet and yell "Seriously God!!!!".  Yet the core of my being, the whispering of the Spirit is urging me to push forward and to handle my anger with a Godly approach. This does not mean that I can't be angry, it doesn't even mean that I can't say "Seriously, God?", but it does mean that I need to keep in mind who it is I serve.

Today, my kids were truly disappointed and angry that we did not go to the pool as I said we would if they cleaned up the room. However, as mom I was able to look at the big picture of our hotel room and see that my children chose to do the bare minimum. They picked up a few big things and figured mom would be happy, but beyond our room today I saw the need to instill a good work ethic, an understanding of completing a job to the best of ones abilities not just to the minimum requirement. I understand that this is a big part of growing up and becoming a responsible adult. It is my job and my responsibility to teach them these things even if the consequences make them angry at the time. They on the other hand have zero concept of what it means to be an adult, of what a real job entails, or what a boss is looking for when hiring an employee. They do not understand why the lesson they learned today that caused them to be angry was important. 

In this same way, I too am often unaware of what lessons I am learning at that time and why I am learning them. My God though, he knows. He knows I won't always be happy with the refining, the pruning, and He is willing to walk with me through it. If I can keep this in mind it will be much easier to keep myself from crossing that line from composed anger to a childhood tantrum.

Thank you for listening to me vent. I would love to hear how you help to keep in check your anger during times of trial so that you don't cross from anger to tantrum. Please feel free to share in the comments. Your support and development of this community of deliberate women is such a wonderful encouragement.

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