My whole life I've been told I'm weird.
It's never bothered me, not even once. To me, it was that person's way of saying, "You're unique." And because I'm "unique" it should come as no surprise as a 38-year-old, God and I play a game quite often together. This game doesn't have a name but if it did, it'd be close to Hide and Seek.
Hebrews 6:11 says, "Without faith, it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him." As his dearly loved daughters, it's our honor to seek him not only in scripture and prayer but in all things.
I love seeking. I believe God has given me an eye for details, which is why when I go for prayer walks he opens my eyes to see details. Seeking details that make me think of him and in my heart, I know it's his way of saying, "This is here for you-enjoy it, I love you." For some prayer walks, seeking details can be a beautiful colored flower, all alone behind a bush so it's barely visible. Any introvert knows how that feels. Or a perfect sunset sky, but not just any sunset sky, a sky filled with clouds that look just like a soaring eagle that reminds me of Isaiah 40:31, "But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." Or a large weathered leaf that looks like perfect, delicate lace. Weathered by life but still beautiful, a bit like our own lives. To me, these are all God's ways of reminding me he's there with me. All I have to do is seek.
About a year ago I was on a prayer walk with my eyes and heart in seek mode. These words came out of my heart, "God, let my eyes be opened to a treasure that everyone else has passed by." Looking back, this was me asking God to do something special in our time together. I had no idea how much he was going to take that specific prayer request and show off though! I can see him smiling at me as I prayed that child-like prayer.
Fast forward two weeks later and I'm out on an evening walk with my family. My husband, three kids, and our smooth mixed collie, Wiley. It was a beautiful evening and on such nights like this one when we're not in a rush to get back home, we'll swing through a rather old graveyard to extend our walk. This graveyard is small in size and has a lot of older dated graves. Some back to the mid-1800s. There's a small path that runs through it with white gravel. As we walk on the path my family begins to walk faster than me. At this point, everyone is ahead of me. Out of habit, I begin to look down and say a few words to God when suddenly a perfect silver circle catches my eye on the side of the gravel path. The path that everyone has walked on. I bend down and grab the only thing that seemed to demand my attention and I quickly rub it clean. It's a real treasure. A treasure everyone else has passed by. In my hands, I would soon find out, was a is a gorgeous 1-carat diamond ring.
James 4:2 says, "You do not have because you do not ask God." In my own personal walk with Christ, I tend to get reminded of this verse a lot. He desires for us to seek and ask of him. He's our Heavenly Father who loves us beyond what we can even comprehend. If I can encourage anyone out there with my unique story it's this, seek him in all things in whatever season life has you in! He will not let you down!
My prayer for you today is that God would grant you the desire to seek him in all areas of your life. To be diligent in finding time every day to quiet your soul and connect with him. To know him is better than finding the largest diamond on earth. To seek him and finding him is a promise straight out of the mouth of Christ. (Matthew 7:8)
Take heart daughters, you're in strong hands that can hold you, caring eyes that see you, and a fiercely loving heart that longs to have you seek a deeper union.
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